I wrote this post about a week ago while I was at work but just needed more time to process it before actually typing it up and publishing it. That is why the dates mentioned in here may be a little off.
Today is always a hard day every year. I didn’t think it was going to be bad today, but while sitting at work, it hit me like a ton of bricks. June 4, 2013…it has been 14 years today that my dad died in a hospital room in Lancaster, PA while on family vacation. 14 years, that can’t be right. Sometimes it feels just like yesterday. Others it feels as if it was a lifetime ago. My dad was a good man. Yes, there were times that I couldn’t stand him. There were things about him that I never liked and have fought very hard to keep from developing those same habits in my own life. Mainly, this would be his temper.
Even with these few things, I have to say he was a good man and a great example. Sometimes that example was what not to do, but for the most part, especially in the last 10 years of his life, he was an example of a godly man. I learned to play baseball and to golf with him, but I also got to watch and learn how to live for God. It’s a really amazing though to remember him serving as a deacon at the time of his death, and no I’m serving in that role 14 years later.
That is a humbling and honoring thought that we have both served the same congregation in somewhat of the same capacity. I m just realizing the legacy that I am a part of. While this is incredible, it is also somewhat intimidating. I realize that I have plenty of my own faults just like dad, but I strive to be seen as a good man. More than that, I strive to be a Man of God. This is of utmost importance to me. I have a long way to go but I will get there. I have too many people surrounding me to fail.
Right here, right now, its time to refocus on my walk with Christ. Life seems to always get in the way, but I will do everything I can to make sure my walk and my family’s walk with Christ is the best that it can be. And that starts now with recommitting to spending daily time in conversation with God. I have to stope letting life get in the way. I have a a family legacy to uphold. Let us all become Crosseyed. Hebrews 12:1-3